Believe
I’m tired of never being good enough, not trying hard enough, and always backing out on things because I’m scared. I can’t stand the way I am. I can’t. I have to prove myself wrong. I have dozens of people who stand behind me and are willing to help me, but I am so scared of failing. I scare myself into failing at everything I want to be. I swear I can’t disappoint myself again… because if I do I don’t know what I will do with myself. I’ll only be happy if I place myself there. I already place myself there when I day dream, but it all has to become a reality even if I have to quit my job and force myself to live in a cave. I have to for myself and for everyone else, but mostly for myself.
&& now I have to go cry to release all this tension I’ve been building up inside of me. I have to release all this stress and negativity. I won’t get myself anywhere like that.
